Please note: I DID NOT WRITE THIS! This is a repost.
http://thestoriesyoucannottell.blogspot.com/2007/04/seung-cho-and-what-i-know.html
Seung Cho and what I know
I was in his playwriting class last fall. I was always a quiet guy myself, not really making too many friends during my years at Virginia Tech. On a couple of occasions, we'd end up sitting close to each other. I had always thought that Cho was a little "off" but since I was strange in my own right, I didn't think too much of it. People like Cho and I never seem to make friends easily and the fact that we were both loners of sorts made me pay a little more attention to him that usual.
Just before Christmas I passed by Seung Cho while he was walking around the Drill Field, a little more sad-looking than usual. I offered him a cigarette which he refused with a wave of his hand. I then tried to talk to him about one of the plays we had recently reviewed in class and he finally started talking a little. We talked about the plot and the characters when suddenly Cho asked me what others had thought about his "Richard McBeef" story.
It was then that I told Seung Cho that some of the others in the class were a little concerned with his writing. Seung seemed to get a kick out of that because he suddenly had a smile where only a grin existed before. I told him that some people were talking about him before class, talking about he was a little strange acting and with this play of his, some other students joked about him being a charter member of the trenchcoat mafia. Cho wondered what that was, so I told him about the whole Littleton, Colorado school shooting. He seemed intrigued by my words. We talked a little more about "sticking it to the man" and how good it feels to break things sometimes. I used to steal cars and smash them into buildings, Seung mentioned he liked to hurt things. I didn't ask anymore questions.
After that day I thought differently about Seung-Hui Cho. I thought I might read about him in the paper one day, and not for any good reason.
And then it happened. All over the news. School shooting at Virginia Tech. My first thoughts when my mother called and asked me if I was okay was, " I wonder if it was Cho?!" After getting off the phone with my mom, I smiled a little knowing that Cho had gotten what he wanted. Revenge.
Cho Seung-Hui has gone and done what many of us "loners" only wish we had the courage do to. I too have often thought of taking my anger out on innocents, but unlike Seung Cho, I just don't have the courage to pull the trigger. He did.
I feel bad for the victims, but not too much. Perhaps people will start paying closer attention to us loners before we end up making ourselves popular, for all the wrong reasons!
4 comments:
Cho didn't have courage, that's the biggest line of crap I've read so far. It would have taken a hell of a lot more courage if he would have accepted the help he was offered, and accepted the fact that he needed some mental help. It's nothing to be ashamed of. It would have taken courage to put yourself out there and try to make friends and/or become part of a group, all the while knowing that he would have to deal with some rejection as part of the process. We all do. What he did, didn't take an ounce of courage. He took an easy way out, all the while holding onto the universal loner's excuse...it's always someone elses fault. Pathetic.
How fucking dear you say you smiled...I should report all this crap to the athorities. Do you know that a student is currently in jail in colorado for saying he knows how some one could kill all those people I hope you have fun when you get what's coming to you. Oh and as for your lil friend cho he is burning in hell and suffering for all of etternity for what he did and he is probably crying like a lil baby begging for mercy heh what courage right?....
My biggest regret after reading this is that your not saying this to me in person at arms reach ,what an asshole statement!
The comments are that blog itself are scary. Some of the blame society, Cho, the school, the teachers that knew he was messed up.
Who takes the blame? All of us? Go check out the coments. Some people are just plain screwed up!
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